Tanushree Meel

When I was in 3rd standard I got admitted to a new school, Vardhaman Vidya Vihar secondary school. Like it is for every newcomer my new school was a total fascinating thing for me, a new dress, a new bag, new stationery, but the thing which fascinated me most was that everyone, literally everyone was speaking in English.  Till that time, I could barely converse in English, but I was the most talkative girl when it came to speaking in marwadi or Hindi ( my mother tongues)! In this new school we "have" had to speak in English "only", the two exceptional periods were that of Hindi and Sanskrit when we were "allowed" to speak in Hindi.  On my first day, there was no teacher in class, I got up and asked the monitor.... paani bharnn....( monitor)- speak in English.....I again tried to speak .. paani bhaaa... again I was ordered to speak in English only. I lowered my eyes and sit down. I asked the person sitting on the bench ahead of me... paani bharne jana h, En...

( I wrote this poem back in 2017 but this one poem always reminds me of why i started in the first place ) Never forget your tears Those restless nights Those fears Those moments which tore you apart Those incidents which became your part Its a journey You will make mistakes But mistakes are worthy only if we learn Experience and wisdom is all what we earn Don't be afraid of committing mistakes Don't be afraid of accepting them Don't be egoist enough to learn from them Learn and grow Keep aside your ego There will be hurdles But warriors are meant for battles Don't be too hard on your self Be a mentor for your self Don't accept a lot Keep appreciating every plot Don't let their appreciations and criticism decide your value Its you and only you who will decide your hue You are meant to go very far Far even from that farthest star Journey won't be easy distractions will make it messy You keep growing on Your saviour is beside you Do...

Talked for a week Fall short of topics Shared for a week Fall short of feelings Laughed together for a week Fall short of humour And this is it...... Ways are there But essence is nowhere All you have is fear Social media is the host Where social life is lost You laugh , you chill , you cheer Or to say you just pretends And this is how it ends You remain no more the same you Living in fake and showing up fake You become the fake you I miss those conversations sitting in front of each other Where silence used to add a flavour I miss those long distances Where mere vibes create presence I miss those conversations over phone Where you get to know everything by just listening the tone I miss that feeling of missing Amidst this chaos our essence is loosing I dont want to be a part of it anymore Want to open a new door For my emotions , for my feelings , for my reality Where in All spheres there is the real me Without show off ,without fakeness without compromis...

People say i am bold They think i can fight everything But the real fight is one i fight with myself The real warrior is one who fights with oneself The toughest battle is one with your own self You loose Yourself defeats you Everytime it beats you You want to cherish it, it ruins you You are an angel, it brings the devil out of you You wants to be happy, it saddens you You want to move with flow, it stops you Everytime it defeats you But let me remind The true warrior is one who fights with herself Let it defeat me I will stand up Let it burry me I will grow up Let it destroy me But i will never give up I will fight Fight untill i master my mind Fight untill i make it remind That i am happy I will cherish I will walk with flow I will glow You are there with your army I am here with my savour besides me You are powerful But i am soulful You can defeat me but you can't scare me I will fight You keep on defeating me But i will fight Because i am wa...